The worst feeling is a feeling of failure. The feeling that no matter how hard you work, you’re stuck where you are, or that there are always people better than you.
Today was FBLA Districts, and for the first time I participated in a Public Speaking Event. My friend, who got first in the impromptu (which for those of you who don’t know, is where you have a half hour to write a speech they give you on the spot), was also in this event for the first time. I did this event because I don’t think I’m thaaat bad of a public speaker. And I’m not, I’m in Debate, so it’s something I’ve grown to like. Today, there were 19 individuals who competed. I’ve been preparing for about a week, and my friend wrote his speech last night. Out of those 19 competitors, I was called back in the top 6 for finals round :). Then, when awards were called up…I got 5th. Not gonna lie…I was disappointed, but at the same time I was happy for my friend…He got first. *shockeeer* ? It was just disappointing because I felt like a failure. I didn’t understand how my friend could write his speech the night before and do so well?!
Truth is, my friend is naturally good at speaking. And he deserves the first place. People are going to be naturally better than you at things, and it’s okay. We all have our own fortes. I’m better at math than a lot of people, and it’s okay. My friend is much better at English than me…and it’s okay. IT’S OKAY! No one is perfect! No one is a failure! There’s always room to improve, and it’s okay.
Now I know what I can work on. And it’s only because God has given me this place to improve. 🙂 Even though I’m still kind of disappointed about the 5th place…it’s okay. Life is still good.