Happy Good Friday guys! (Well for the not orthodox 😉 )
Right now, I’m taking a quick break to share something. All of this week I have been preparing for my ACT…which is in two weeks. I’ve been taking practice tests on practice tests, and it gets demotivating when you don’t see the results you want. Whooo
But, I thought about it…and instead of stressing, I’m putting matters in God’s hands. Yes, I’m going to continue working hard, but instead of freaking out every time I don’t get the result I want, it’s all God’s glory to the result and progress I did reach, and prayer that God will help me progress even more.
The more I think I’m the smart one or getting these results on my own, the more I’m lying to myself. Because it’s not, it’s all God. And I just really pray God helps me reach my goal.
“For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.”-Psalm 50:2
Actually first, I want to share something I’m really thankful for. Whenever I listen to the song “You and Me” by Lifehouse, I always think of the most random things haha.
I’m really thankful for the opportunities I’ve been given. My dad was raised with very little and very little opportunity. He went to a school with a crappy library (actually I don’t even know if it had a library), so he would always go check out books secretly from his sister’s school to read. He was always so hardworking, and made the most out of everything he did have. I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for his ambition and passion. It’s amazing. And when I remember that, it makes me realize how lucky I am for the opportunities I do have. It makes me realize how stupid I am for not valuing these opportunities as much I should. It makes me want to work harder.
I am blessed with an amazing role model. So thank you so much, God. I am so very blessed.
“Give thanks to the lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.” -1 Chronicles 16:34
Today needs to be productive.
I spend so much of my time worrying/thinking about things that don’t affect me as much as the things that affect me and my future directly.
It’s time I set my priorities straight and actually work for results instead of standing on a basis of luck.
There’s a lot to do that I’ve pushed aside. And the only person who can control that is me. It relates back to my previous post…which means I haven’t made progress since lol. So today will be a change. LEEEEEEGGO
“You’ve done better before.”
That is literally all I heard today. Spanish oral, tennis, what’s wrong with me? I don’t want to be some steadily declining alien… I’m supposed to get better!
If anything, I blame the stupid picture of a cosmetic lip for my Spanish picture (I MEAN WHY ME. I GOT THE WORST PICTURES) and the cold weather for cold hands during tennis. But WAIT as much as I blame these inanimate objects as my reason for failure, it’s truly my fault. It’s my fault.
I blame myself, and I truly am the person to receive this blame. And as angry and upset with the world, I realize it’s all my fault. Do something with your life Salome.
On the bright side, I talked to my English teacher about help with my essay, and I felt confident when I took my in class essay… For the FIRST time. Why? Because I was more prepared. I mean, I don’t know. Talking to the teacher helped me so much. And it’s that same help I need to give myself when I do other things, whether it’s from myself or other teachers, coaches, etc.
And that’s where I’m going to conclude. You suck by the way. You meaning, Salome.