Today is September 18, 2016. It’s a good day & I’m spending it alone in Innisfree – a fair trade and local coffee shop, which makes me love it even more.
Last night, I babysat for a new family, & the kids were adorable. Today, Kiersten told me that the family loved me and it was really good to hear. It also reminded me of how last semester when I “interviewed” for another family’s one day a week sitter, I left the “interview” thinking to myself “well, didn’t get that one lol”, (and i didn’t get it). But I also think back to last semester and realize, I would not have survived with the extra weekly commitment.
Freshman year, I remember walking out of my RA interview knowing I messed the interview up, but I think back and realize I wouldn’t have met Lindsey, my random roommate, who has become another sister to me and helped me grow SO much.
I kept thinking back to even more “failures”. The reason I have this in quotations is because I realized that these failures weren’t really failures; they were life events leading me towards a different path that was more fit for me, my purpose, and who I’m supposed to become. Failures are God’s way of leading you in the right direction. Praise, today is such a good day.
So back to what I dressed up for TOK – disappointment, rejection, failure. With college apps, programs, and scholarships all over the place, rejection is something you have to get used to. And trust me, this wasn’t (isn’t) easy, especially when it makes you feel like nothing you’ve done matters.
But the thing is, there’s only so much you can do. God takes care of the rest. If you don’t do as well as you hoped, or don’t get into the program you wanted to get in, maybe God doesn’t want you there. God has another plan for you.
Truth is, failure is inevitable. We can’t let failure knock us down because we have an entire future ahead of us. And we need this positive attitude to keep us going. We need this positive attitude to realize the value God has instilled within us. We need this attitude to know that our life isn’t a waste. That extra five minutes you take to finish your math assignment is an extra five minutes that you used in your life to help you understand that concept better for yourself. That extra five minutes might help you prepare for something you do in the future.
Truth is: everything you do and everything you go through shapes who you are. I remember earlier I quoted a verse: “For we are God’s handiwork created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do” (Ephesians 2:10, NIV).
And it’s true. You may not use what you learn in the near future…but God very well knows why you’re learning it. God knows very well why not everything runs smoothly. God is only preparing you.
This is something my dad had to remind me of the other day. And coming from him, was a blessing and something I definitely needed to hear.